She Wanted To Stay But You Pushed Her Away
You were her all. She loved you unconditionally and fought for you with every part of herself. She only had eyes for you and gave you everything she had.
She tried to meet your expectations and be the girl you wanted her to be.
She knew she wasn’t perfect, but she tried hard to be perfect just for you. She wanted to hear from you that she was beautiful to you with all her imperfections and quirks.
But of all things, she wanted to be with you the most.
You were the one who made her eyes beam with happiness. The one who made her body tremble at your touch. The one who made her heart skip a beat when you looked at her. The one who had the key to her heart.
She wanted to make you happy. She wanted to be the REASON for all your smiles and MOMENTS of happiness. She wanted to hold your hand when you were FEELING down and make you feel better. She wanted to be your comfort, your biggest fan, your inspiration, your hope.
She put her priorities aside so that she could take care of yours.
She wanted the best for you.
She loved you with every part of herself. She committed her soul, mind, and body solely to you and wore her heart on her sleeve.
And what did you do?
You took her for granted. You never returned her feelings. You took her heart, tossed it, and left her pick up the pieces by herself.
She knew all your flaws, but she accepted and cherished them.
She accepted you for who you were, with all your faults, quirks, insecurities, fears, and problems. She never tried to change you BECAUSE to her you were perfect just the way you were.
You deserved her hatred, but she couldn’t bring herself to hate you.
You lied to her, made her feel unworthy, and hurt her feelings many times. You never bothered to ask her how she felt or how her day went. It was all about you. Always about you. As long as your needs were satisfied, nothing else mattered. She should’ve hated you BECAUSE you were selfish and dishonest.
You were selfish BECAUSE you kept her in your life so that she could help you STOP being dissatisfied with yourself and your life. You kept her by your side BECAUSE she boosted your ego. BECAUSE you knew she was way better than you.
She wanted to stay, but you pushed her away.
She tried hard to make things work between you. She hoped her love for you would change the way you treated her. She thought her love for you would soften that cold, diabolic heart of yours. But, that never happened. It was all just a wishful thinking.
The only thing she did wrong was loving you too much.
You took her for granted. You believed that whatever you said or did, she would never leave. You believed that no matter how many times you’d lie to her, she’d always give you another chance. And that’s exactly what she did. She gave you way too many chances although you didn’t deserve them.
She accepted all your lame excuses and empty promises. But no! She did not do that because she was naïve or blinded by her love for you. She did that BECAUSE she wanted you in her life. She wanted to be a part of your life too. She wanted your eyes to be the first thing she saw in the morning.
However, by giving you so many chances, she only made you get comfortable depending on her forgiveness.
You took parts of her she thought she would never find again.
Her patience had limits after all. She realized you didn’t love her BECAUSE you don’t destroy the person you love. BECAUSE when you truly love someone you don’t tear their heart apart and then tell them to love. You don’t ruin their hopes and then tell them to be strong and believe.
She REALIZED there was no use fighting for someone who has given up on her long time ago. She REALIZED there was no point in fighting for someone who pushed her away so easily.
She REALIZED that sometimes you need to let go of someone so that you can get back on the right track and rediscover yourself.
But, she didn’t leave BECAUSE she was fickle, selfish, and weak. She left BECAUSE she could not longer put up with the way you treated her. BECAUSE she could no longer endure being your second option, your favorite pastime. BECAUSE she was tired of your manipulation and devious mind games.
She left BECAUSE she was strong and resilient for too long. BECAUSE she was tired of giving you everything and not getting anything in return. BECAUSE she could no longer smile while her soul was crying. BECAUSE she exhausted herself trying to make you happy. She was tired trying to open your eyes so that you could see how much she loved and appreciated you.
She left BECAUSE you gave her no reason to stay.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT? One day you’re going to wake up and REALIZE that you should have listened to and been there for her more. You’ll BECOME AWARE of all those times you made her cry and shattered her hopes, and you’ll be sorry for it.
And one day, when another man takes your place in her heart, you’ll regret allowing yourself to lose this woman who was one of a kind. The woman who had a unique heart and loved in ways that no words can describe. You’ll regret not giving her the love and respect she deserved. You’ll regret not appreciating her when you had the chance.
Only a few are lucky enough to be loved by such a woman and you were one of them, but you didn’t care about it. You pushed her away.
*Words by Riley Cooper