hello. i am a 14 year old girl, 15 in a week, and i started therapy around 2 months ago through my school after experiencing a lot of anxiety and depression since september. i have nearly constant intrusive thoughts. recently, i’ve only felt worse. i came very close to a suicide attempt recently. my therapist suggested speaking with a psychiatrist and seeing if i can start medication. but i can’t help but feel it’s all a waste. my family doesn’t have much money. medication and therapy sessions are expensive and nothing even seems to be working. i really don’t think i can get better. i want to die so badly. i feel so alone.i have no talents, i’m not great at anything. i’m not pretty. i’m annoying. i want to get better, i truly do, but i don’t think i’m capable and i don’t think i’m worth it.