#1572

李🐰:

I will always choose you were my words before and is still now. You should have asked me what happened instead of saying I’m with another, and you concluded what happened without asking or knowing the truth. Ever since I met you and we’ve been together you’re the only in my heart and the only one I see, and all of them know it only you who won’t listen and know, refuses to see what I really feel because you choose to believe what you think. Even my friends are mad at me because I kept on holding on and waiting for you even if I’ve been hurt too many times and I guess It really is stupidy, waiting for someone who already throw everything away because of what he thinks what really happened, not giving me a chance to say anything nor listen. It pains me that I don’t have a voice in the decision you made and I’m just left in a corner crying, overthinking, unable to sleep, and blame myself for everything. I don’t even know what to blame myself and I kept saying sorry for everything and I don’t know who’s fault it is mine or yours but I don’t care I’ll take all the blame if it’s necessary I’ll say sorry as many times whether it’s my fault or not. I’ve put my pride and myself down ever since, I have nothing left because I have everything that’s why I loss everything and I also loss myself. Right now I’m lost, where to put myself, what to feel, how to keep going, my emotions are in conflict so is my mind, I feel numb yet I cry every night the sad part about crying is that even if I cried an ocean I’m still unable to sleep. I don’t know what you feel, what you’re thinking but I hope you’re doing much better than mine. Im already at the end of the rope I’ll probably break down sooner rather than later.

I will always choose you were my words before and is still now. You should have asked me what happened instead of saying I’m with another, and you concluded what happened without asking or knowing the truth. Ever since I met you and we’ve been together you’re the only in my heart and the only one I see, and all of them know it only you who won’t listen and know, refuses to see what I really feel because you choose to believe what you think. Even my friends are mad at me because I kept on holding on and waiting for you even if I’ve been hurt too many times and I guess It really is stupidy, waiting for someone who already throw everything away because of what he thinks what really happened, not giving me a chance to say anything nor listen. It pains me that I don’t have a voice in the decision you made and I’m just left in a corner crying, overthinking, unable to sleep, and blame myself for everything. I don’t even know what to blame myself and I kept saying sorry for everything and I don’t know who’s fault it is mine or yours but I don’t care I’ll take all the blame if it’s necessary I’ll say sorry as many times whether it’s my fault or not. I’ve put my pride and myself down ever since, I have nothing left because I have everything that’s why I loss everything and I also loss myself. Right now I’m lost, where to put myself, what to feel, how to keep going, my emotions are in conflict so is my mind, I feel numb yet I cry every night the sad part about crying is that even if I cried an ocean I’m still unable to sleep. I don’t know what you feel, what you’re thinking but I hope you’re doing much better than mine. Im already at the end of the rope I’ll probably break down sooner rather than later.

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