I want to harm myself. Emotional pain is too much for me to bear. I couldn’t take it like this. Crying isn’t helping. I’m trembling. I just want to cut. But I’m scares of going back to the old version of myself. I should be happier now. I should be better now. But what is happening. Why am I changing myself, again? Why is there the need to go back to the darkness? I’m in pain. It’s too much I need to cut.